Post by Roxas on Mar 1, 2010 12:23:28 GMT -5
Nothing Makes Sense Anymore
Why? Why have I been brought back a separate being? I thought I was supposed to merge with Sora for good, so he could be whole… So I could be whole. From what I’ve heard around, Organization XIII has come back, as well as Heartless and the other Nobodies. Is that why I’m back? It doesn’t matter; I’m not going back to the Organization. I defected, I left. End of story.
It seems like every time there is a moment of peace in the world, something has to ruin it for everyone. Why could I just be left alone? I was already miserable enough, having lost my best friends. I mean, Xion is back too, and don’t get me wrong, I’m incredibly happy. I just don’t get it. History repeats itself, right? Then won’t she end up fading? Axel fading? Me merging with Sora? This stupid war between Nobodies, Heartless and the Keyblade is really starting to piss me off. I mean, it’s just ridiculous. Don’t they know that the good guys always win? Why even try? Stupid, ignorant pathetic excuses for scientists. I hate them all. Aside from Xion and Axel, I have nothing good to remember during my time in their ranks. Though, to be honest, I’m not too fond of Sora either. He’s just so damn happy, it can be really annoying and gets on my nerves. Once more, we’re thrust into a war we never wanted, a war that started because someone had to get power hungry. A war between creatures of dark and nothing, and light. I don’t want any part of it, ever.
And then I wonder something; are my feelings for Xion really gone? Or did they subside from the shock of watching her fade? Being with her… It just made me so happy; her smile, her laugh, her antics. After being without her company for so long, all of that is just so incredibly intoxicating. I just want to spend more and more time, but I don’t even know whether I like her or not. It’s just a simple problem, but why is the solution so damn hard to find? I don’t know, I hope I find out soon, or it might get awkward. Whatever. Nothing makes sense anymore.
-Roxas
