Post by Stella Nox Fleuret on Feb 10, 2010 0:30:26 GMT -5
At home again....In my room....Alone....Well, I have to say this, Noctis and I have had another meet. He is so mysterious. That is one thing I love about him. Those dark eyes of his are so intoxicating...What do they mean when they look into mine? I know he has feelings for me. I can just sense it every time we are together. But he is just damned proud to admit what he really feels. I'm gonna make sure I know what he wants next time we are together. I hate myself for thinking about him so much....I think I'm falling for my families worst enemy....And that is so not good! What would father say? What would he say?
I can't be his little girl forever either. One day he won't have me around to scream and punch at....He's not the father I've wanted. But I had no say in the matter. My mom loved him why I would never know....But I have to keep this in my own mind....She was my mother....And she loved me greatly....Unlike my father. She would have a broken heart if she knew what he was doing to me....I can't tell any one this...I just can't....My life is not what most think...I may be rich and have a easy life....But frankly....it sucks.....There is yet some thing else about me no one can know of....No one. Not even the man I've fell in love with......
I can't be his little girl forever either. One day he won't have me around to scream and punch at....He's not the father I've wanted. But I had no say in the matter. My mom loved him why I would never know....But I have to keep this in my own mind....She was my mother....And she loved me greatly....Unlike my father. She would have a broken heart if she knew what he was doing to me....I can't tell any one this...I just can't....My life is not what most think...I may be rich and have a easy life....But frankly....it sucks.....There is yet some thing else about me no one can know of....No one. Not even the man I've fell in love with......
